kakar ipar

it's 5.40 am and i'm still awake

if u notice, all of my entries were posted after midnight

i think i am a BATwoman

not the hero part that resemble

but the nocturnal side...

or maybe there's vampire part(s) in me

the glares of sunlight aching my beautiful face
ouch! ouch!

mengarut....well that's one of my expertise

i'm currently at home

laying on my big favourite sofa

walopun da lembik sebab duk menampung saye yg 'ringan' sgt nih

it's the best of all

watching back-to-back while menyiapkan tempahan tudung nih

"fantaghiro: the cave of the golden rose"

i bet you know this story

it once has been a phenomena to the youngsters, 5 years back i think

i'm not into the romance but the epic of the story

in fact i adores the antagonist (tarabas) more than the hero (ramualdo...salah eja kot)

u know, the period of the story, the big old castle, the noble king, beautiful ambitious princess, the legendary, the royalty, knight with the armor, the war, magics, gladiators bla bla bla...

all these defined my favourite type of movie

well..this is not the main recipe of my entry tonight

presenting

my new family member

hehehe....

now the 6 become 7

welcome to othman's

siti aisyah zakaria

a MONEY-LOVER i am..

i am money lover

yup.. a very loyal money lover indeed

but i've always find a way to make my own money

spend my own money

the greatest feeling of all

especially when i am able to give some to my parents

brother and sisters

for schooling..

i've started being money-independent at the age of 18

simply because i have 2 little sisters and a brother

that need extra money attention

and my family at that time have a hard economy crisis

my father was being cheated for several times

it involved thousands....a lot sum of money

that i would never tell anyone how much RM he lost

they took away too much, and it gave a great effect to our family at that time

the beginning of my real lesson of life...what life could give and takes

how moneys maniac people nowadays

i never asked money from my parents

wait...i've borrowed once, RM50

it happened once that no money left in my pocket, 

and i had to survive one day more before i get the allowance

i've checked in every compartment of my wallet

with a hope that i mistakenly slipped a note

that i can use to buy nasik for lunch

and there was none left..

so...i widened my search and i saw my tabung

i've collected all the coins left, make up almost rm10 in total

my wallet thickened, and one of my friends noticed it

and....she gave me her purse,

"ambikla banyak mana ko nak, ada duit nnti ganti balik. jgn bimbang"

i took rm10, for the lunch and dinner

that's how far my life goes..

and at that time, i remember having a "boyfriend"

i monkey-loved him so much, and it monkeyed my mind too

it blinds me to see he as a complete asshole

yep...
we rarely see eachother

but once we did, everything is on me..

even a glass of ice tea that cost RM1

he borrows money, top ups, and what not

and one day he left me without 24-hours notice...ceit..

hampeh btol la...

well..citer lama.let bygone be bygone...

and one day.... when i was having an examination

i remember reading a thick science notes

15 chapters if i'm not mistaken

and it came to the limit where i can't afford to go beyond

it was too stressful.. i've to do something

and i found a needle and a thread came out of nowhere

must be my roomate's

i'll try to create something, 

something that later turns out to be a flower

really, i don't know how i made it

later then i knew that it called "embroidery"

starting from that day, i learned how to embroider

which i'm intend to tell you later how i got thousands RM

from that day.....

LIFE DOESN'T JUST TAKE AWAY THINGS FROM YOU, IT GIVES IN RETURN.

to be continued....

goodnite...

mmuahh!!!euww...

how MUCH is 0.03???

it's 4.58 am...and i'm still awake...burning the midnight oil?

yes...it's too tiresome

erm...don't get it wrong...

i've wasted so much oil, must be gallons by now just to light up the lamp

to stay awake to.......STUDY?? 

naa.......

i watched korean movie

letting myself to get fooled by those fairytales love story

by those stereotype movies

a young humble tall fair goodlooking kind RICH macho hero

fall for a common silly girl...

there's no such love in real world...

is it?

but i really enjoyed the movie..

i'm so into it!

thinking that it is possibly exist in real world

it's good though

to at least let yourself away from a real world for a while

forgetting the ugliness of reality

now..what the heck am i writing here?

it's just the examination is around the corner

and i do nothing but wasting more time

it's the final of final

i guess the sense of guilt is the reason for all these

my cgpa is 3.47

just a glimpse of the number makes my bones is about to jump out of my skin!

why? it's just 0.03 more

such a small number, is it?

but here in maktab, it almost impossible to add up

it took a world to get 0.03 you know..

p/s: why is it hard for some people to round up 3.47? if there is,then i would be FREE.........................