i am a TEACHER??

alhamdulillah....

all the micro & macro teaching have been done

micro teaching means- work out your lesson plan with the friends pretending themselves as children

macro teaching means-just roughly present what your lesson plan is all about

the rules is simple-do and imply 

but the act out is not as easy as you see

you're 23 at least...pretend that you're 10 years younger is not easy

but we made it happened.

and today i've completed all...

the efforts, the intense, the money, the hardwork, the tears, the smile,the critiques, the comment, the defense

all mixed up...

the thing is

i never picture myself as a teacher

i never tell myself to..

because that is the responsibilities that i'm afraid of

the responsibilities that possible to be a burden

i'm afraid that i don't have the passion

afraid of newspaper's never ending news of teachers at school

i've been here for 5 years..

and now completing the final 6th

thinking of me as teacher-to-be giving me goosebumps 

thinking of me as the adults scared me the most

am going to be a woman

with the responsibilities as a wife, parents, and educators 

the thought is as heavy as stone

the feelings are much more heavier..

what if i'm not the mother-type woman

or a good-wife type..

how much i can stand with children's mayhem..

i know "mayhem" is such a heavy word to describe children

but try to accept the fact that not all of them are adorable

like what has been provoked in those stereotype movies

i worry much i think

let things be as they way they are..

if i meant to be a teacher

i am more than willing to serve..

believe me...

if i can be like one..

i guess i get the picture of me in 10 years ahead..

more or less like this i think..

owh..plus all the wrinkles...

signs ok aging...hahaha

goodnite....

p/s: suddenly all the font are well rainbowed....new skills.haha!